So the time has finally come, after 6 years plaing world of warcraft, 2 years on the u.s and 4 with the eu, it's time to end the game that never ends!
It just feels like i done, nothing more to do with the game. ive had my fun, and now im all wow'd out! So it's back to the xbox, ive got a lovefilm sub, so i can rent the games i want, giving me a wide choice of differant games! No longer shall i feel the pressure to log on and do daileys and lfr's!
On another note, its been a beautiful bank holiday weekend We got the garden done and caught plenty of rays! Aj asked me to go out for a walk one afternoon, so i swallowed my fear {kinda of} and took my son's hand and let him lead the way. He took me onto the field, ive not been there on my own before, so it was rather scary. I stood at the gate to the field and just stared back at the house, am i safe? Should i grab Aj and run back. Ah fuck it! and we let the house go out of view and ran on to the field. it was rather exhilarating. I felt great! I was even feeling great the next day, mine and craigs 4th anniversary,Although it was short lived, but i dont want to go into that.
Anyway, It's getting late and i need to get the lil one down to bed, he's being very challenging lately, trying to be the boss, having tantrums etc. Oh the joys!
Laterz!
Tuesday, 28 May 2013
Wednesday, 22 May 2013
Im not going to sit here and bore you with a long ass life story, its pretty simple really, life was pretty much normal up untill i was 14, then it stopped. It went on pause for over a decade really. Nothing happened. I woke,ate,bathed,slept and played online games everyday, rinse and repeat,rinse and repeat, you get the idea. Ofcourse that was physically. Mentally i was a wreck.
I was scared, all the damn time. and not some deep meaningful,soul aching crap like in the movies where your scared to love or some crap, i was literally scared all the fucking time. Every step i took,i feared i would go dizzy.Id wake up,wondering if today would be the day i would either have a heart attack and die or be put in the damn looney bin.
Anyway, so yes, im an anxiety sufferer, Agoraphobia to be precise. I dont leave the house, if i do, its rare and only onto my street.
These day's im not as bad Im a mum of a little boy, Andrew-John, he's just gone 2 years old and he's my world! I dont really have time to be anxious 24/7, i have a house to run, a little boy to entertain and feed and a fiance to keep by my side.
We recently moved into a new home, our last place was a nightmare, a landlord who didnt care and a house that just was not safe.
So we moved, 5mg of Diazapam, a heap of supportive family members and we upped and found our new home.
I still only venture onto the street, the field with the dog and AJ occasionally, but thats it. At night time i sit and relax with movies or tv shows, but mostly i play World of Warcraft.
Anyway, that is pretty much the start of this here blog, Ill hopefully try to keep at this and update as much as possible, I will mostly be blogging about WoW and agoraphobia stuff.
Much love to you all
Sweetz
I was scared, all the damn time. and not some deep meaningful,soul aching crap like in the movies where your scared to love or some crap, i was literally scared all the fucking time. Every step i took,i feared i would go dizzy.Id wake up,wondering if today would be the day i would either have a heart attack and die or be put in the damn looney bin.
Anyway, so yes, im an anxiety sufferer, Agoraphobia to be precise. I dont leave the house, if i do, its rare and only onto my street.
These day's im not as bad Im a mum of a little boy, Andrew-John, he's just gone 2 years old and he's my world! I dont really have time to be anxious 24/7, i have a house to run, a little boy to entertain and feed and a fiance to keep by my side.
We recently moved into a new home, our last place was a nightmare, a landlord who didnt care and a house that just was not safe.
So we moved, 5mg of Diazapam, a heap of supportive family members and we upped and found our new home.
I still only venture onto the street, the field with the dog and AJ occasionally, but thats it. At night time i sit and relax with movies or tv shows, but mostly i play World of Warcraft.
Anyway, that is pretty much the start of this here blog, Ill hopefully try to keep at this and update as much as possible, I will mostly be blogging about WoW and agoraphobia stuff.
Much love to you all
Sweetz
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